I cant fall asleep. i'm too upset and pissed off.

I've always been one to plan. I like to have goals set out for myself and I like to achieve them. I like to have something to look forward to, something to strive for. Some of my biggest goals in life are owning a house by the time im 25, being married by around 25, and having a kid by around/before im 27. These are things i've wanted for a long time and that I make very well known to those close to me.

Tim is strongly considering making a choice that I feel VERY strongly against. So strongly against in fact that I dont know if i'd be able to stay with him if he does it. This is a decision that I KNOW will hurt him financially and very likely emotionally. That if i remain with him, will force me to either work a whole lot more than just the regular 40 hrs/week in order to reach my goal of buying a house. And it could even hurt me financially (if we get married etc.) I know in my gut it's a BAD choice. I have concrete facts as to why it's such a bad choice. He doesnt even want to hear them.

I hate that I think i'll have to give him an ultimatum. I never wanted to be one of those people. But honestly if he chooses to do this, I dont know if i want to risk my future and stay with him. I guess he deserves to know that making this decision could very well mean he'll lose me. That hurts.

It hurts that he wont even hear me out. That apparently after 3 1/2 years together he wont even listen to me and let me spell it out to him WHY this will not work out well.

Sometimes I just really wish he'd grow up.

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